Onwards and Upwards

I know what I'm supposed to do.

I've seen the psychologists, I've been to group therapy, I've poured my heart out, I've learnt the techniques.

I know that my emotional well being depends upon:

• exercise
• eating right
• sleeping 8 hours a night
• taking my medications regularly
• social outings
• seeing friends
• being with my family
• meditating
• satisfying work
• tackling negative patterns of thought
• not over-committing myself

I have the means, the time, the insight and the capability to do all these things, to make myself emotionally well.

So what's keeping me from being the happiest and most well adjusted person around? Why do I eat too much? Watch too much TV? Stay on the couch too often? Not exercise?

Why aren't my days packed with these activities that should bring me such joy and contentment?

Well, some of the time they are.

The truth is though that I'm surviving. Nothing is really wrong.

If I'm honest it's too much effort to contemplate implementing all I could do all at once.

I'm just tackling a few simple things at the moment.

My work and family life are stable and happy. Not everyone can say that.

I started dating again recently, and that has been a mix of lots of happy moments along with lots of new stressors as well.

Lots more to work on, but you know, I'm doing OK.

Perhaps it's a question of motivation... You know if I'm doing OK, what is the motivation to improve?

I think overall, the direction is right. I'm keeping that list happy, or at least continuing to improve little things where I can.

Onwards and upwards.